Last night, out of the blue, Excitement set aside his computer and asked me a very deep and weighted question:
Excitement : What do you think the point of life is?
Me: Life is just one long journey to death. From the day we’re born, we begin to die. The only thing we can do is try to make the trip a little easier on everyone else around us.
Excitement: You don’t really believe that, do you? I mean, what about God? Don’t you believe in God? Don’t you believe God loves you?
Me: Of course I believe in God. I love God. I just don’t know how much He really loves me. I mean, after all, He let sin into the world and sin causes pain. Life is just one long stretch of pain. Sure, there are good things, but every time something good comes into your life it’s just a matter of time before it gets snatched away again. Sometimes I wish good things never happened. Then it wouldn’t hurt so much when they’re gone.
Excitement: What about Jesus? He died to save you from sin.
Me: I know, and I appreciate that - I really do - but just because He forgave us from sin doesn’t mean that all the pain in the world goes away.
Excitement: But that’s free will. God loved us all so much that He gave us all free will, even Satan. That’s why there is pain. Because Satan has free will and people have free will and we cause the pain.
Me: Oh, so that’s supposed to make me feel better? Thanks, but no thanks.
Excitement: So you’d just rather have no free will at all? You’d rather just drift along with all your decisions pre-ordained?
Me: That’s how I live anyway. I mean, I know I have choices, but I don’t really have any choices. Nothing I do ever really makes anything better. I just fall from one hole into another.