Ready To Heal

In the end, we both lost temporary custody. The judge awarded my mother full custody of Boo. I was awarded temporary supervised visitation (supervised by my mother) on 2nd and 4th weekends of every month. Excitement was awarded supervised visitation (supervised by his mother and step-father) on 1st, 3rd and 5th weekends of every month. Because I live with my mother, and because Excitement has voluntarily missed his last 3 weekends with Boo, I have been with him full-time. The only down-side is that my mother has to supervise me at all times and she is legally in charge of making all decisions about his welfare. It could have been much worse.

Now I’m trying to navigate the single world again. Up until this point I’ve always associated my self-worth with the opinions of whatever man was a prominent figure in my life. Now I’m searching for the real me, someone I’m not sure I’ve ever met. I’ve returned to school and I’m juggling the challenges of being a full-time student and a full-time single-mom. Thankfully, my mother has been an endless source of support. A doctor I visited for a court-ordered psychological evaluation corrected my previous diagnosis of Bi-Polar Disorder and I’m now in therapy to help me deal with Post-Traumatic Stress Syndrome. All in all, I’m just trying to get on with my life and learn how to heal.