A Healthy Routine?

Every morning when I wake up, the first thing I do is check the coffee pot.  If it's empty, I make a new pot.  If there is some left over from yesterday, I put it in the microwave.  I have a morning routine that includes annoying my girlfriend while she tries to sleep and then calling my mom on the telephone.  I also check facebook about five times.  All the while, I am chain smoking cigarrettes on the half and hour mark.

Today, there was a break in this routine.  I took a walk.  I walked for .9 miles and it took me twenty minutes.  I felt great.  I made plans for the far-ranging future and the day while I walked. .9 miles is once around my block.  I was sure, above all else, that I would go around twice and therefore be twice as healthy. 

I didn't make it around twice.  I told myself I will go around twice tomorrow.  However, deep inside, I know I will probably not even walk tomorrow.  Ah well, you can always dream.  The possiblities are open.

That's what a divorce is like.  It's a huge break in your routine.  You often know it is good for you, but you hate it while it's going on.  When you're done, you feel different and only have a vague idea of why.  All you know is that the possiblities are opening up.  And that's a good thing?