All Alone

So I’ve been busy taking final exams. Oh that and enjoy my time alone. Yeah Prince Charming is out of town. As been for a week, now. Really I couldn’t have asked for a better time. Finals week is stressful enough without some idiot yelling and throwing things around just because. He is out of town for work, and will be gone all month. 

Maybe I am supposed to be missing him. Well, I’m sorry but I’m just not. No take that back I am not sorry. I am glad for this time alone. It’s not like I am out partying everyday. I just enjoy not having to listen to yelling and complaining. I like not having to take care of anyone else.

Mostly it’s the small stuff I like. I like being able to eat whatever I want for dinner, and not have to worry what he likes. I like being about to watch what I want on TV. I like being able to put my stuff wherever I want it without having someone come home and move it. I like being able to go wherever I want without having to let anyone know. I like being able to buy what I want without someone asking how much I am spending. I love all of these things.  

I didn’t always feel like this. Before we were married I always dreamed about what it would be like for us when we were married. I thought I would like it all. Sure you have to wash more clothes and share the TV, but he was so good to me it would be worth it. I realize that is not my thinking anymore.

I don’t like being married much. Maybe if he wasn’t such an ass I might like it, but he is, so I don’t. The point is I know I don’t want to be married anymore. Not to him, not to anyone. I don’t want to try and make this work. I don’t want to do anything. I just want out. I like the way this week as been going. I like it very much. I want it all the time.