Does Taking A Stand Have To Hurt?

It’s easy to be pissed off at the monster, but not so easy when he’s a man again.  I’m such a sucker.  I fall for the Dr. Jekyll act every time.  

Two days ago, during a heated argument, Mr. Hyde shouted at me that he wanted a divorce.  This isn’t unusual; he throws the ‘D’ word around in every argument, but recently I’d told him if he was using it as an idle threat to hurt me that it had to stop.  Divorce is serious and not a concept to be tossed out every time your angry.  He agreed, so when it came up the other day, I figured he meant it.  I started looking up resources and trying to figure out some sort of plan. How was this going to work?  What did I have to do first?

Last night he says he wants to talk. He brings up the same fight from the other day and again tried to make his point.  After two days, he still isn’t willing to compromise or relax his position. He’s still fighting the same battle and waiting for me to give in.  I mention the resources on divorce that I found and he flips out.  “You want a divorce -- so what’s the point in us talking anymore?”  Whoa. Back up the bus. I want a divorce?  Do you recall shouting it at me the other night?  Do you remember agreeing to not bring it up unless you were serious?  

He admitted that despite our agreement, he brought it up again out of anger and didn’t really mean it.  Suddenly, he’s full of pitiful remarks like “Fine, I understand you want to divorce me so you can be happy.  It’s all about you anyway, right?  It doesn’t matter how I feel.”  He walks around the house acting depressed and I end up feeling guilty.  Like an idiot, I give in because I feel bad.  Why do I continue to do this?