Good Days

I haven’t posted in a while, and there is a reason. Everything has been great! It seems odd that I don’t post the good times as well as the bad. I guess the reason is that when you are happy everything is good. You could tell people how good you are doing, but you don’t feel the need too. When I am angry, depressed, disappointed, and so on I feel the need to tell someone, anyone just to vent and make myself feel better.

For the last five days everything has been wonderful. He is the guy I met, the guy I fell in love with, and the guy I married. He helps with the housework, he brings home flowers, he listens when I need to talk, he looks at the bright side, and when something bad happens in his day, it doesn’t ruin his mood for the whole week.

This is a big change from the guy who I have been living with for the last 11 months. That guy doesn’t help with anything whether it is housework or me needing someone to listen. That guy is totally negative. He doesn’t see the bright side of any bad situation, and if the situation is good he finds something wrong with it to complain about. When something goes wrong in that guy’s day, any little minor thing, he flies off the handle. It ruins his whole week. He complains, yells, breaks everything in the house just to let his frustration out because he got stuck at two red lights in a row (or whatever the little thing is).

I really didn’t want to enjoy these good days and get sucked back into thinking he’s a great guy and everything really could work out and we could live happily ever after. I didn’t want to just forgive and forget everything he has done in the last few months. Thing is though, that for the last few months I have been so angry and bitter. Feeling like that just wasn’t any fun.