Mission Impossible

My 16-year-old daughter is on a mission...to find me the man of my dreams. I have no interest in finding a new man...NO WAY I want to allow any man into my life right now.  I’ve been separated for nearly two months now, but I haven’t even filed for a divorce yet. 

Mr. Hyde has been bugging the hell out of me to file the papers so he can ‘move on.’  Nothing is stopping him from dating... unless he’s having trouble getting responses to his personals ad. Women beware!

Anyway, my daughter’s theory is if I find someone else, I won't be tempted to go back to Mr. Hyde...um, well, I packed up everything I own and moved three states away...I think it's unlikely I'll go back.

Every dating website commercial gets my daughter going.  "That website is too picky, the people on this one are much better," she raves.  While I appreciate her concern for me, she's having trouble accepting that I don't feel lonely.

Yes, holidays can suck, but I have my kids, friends and family -- I can stay busy.  

I’ve pulled up Mr. Hyde’s personal ad a few times.  I read what he’s looking for and realize I was all of those things.  The ad just proves the problem isn’t with the women he picks, it’s with him.  His handsome face will draw another woman like me in and eventually, he’ll take his anger and unhappiness out on her and break her down by saying she’s the crazy one.

Why do I even bother looking up his ad?  I don’t know; maybe to torture myself or out of some weird curiosity.  Or maybe to show myself if he’s ready to replace me, I don’t have to feel bad when I’m ready to move on as well.