Photographs & Memories

Despite threats to call the police and prevent me from leaving, in the end, Mr. Hyde silently surrendered to the inevitable.  He insisted on "supervising" as I packed each box and being there while I loaded up the Uhaul with my stuff.

It gave us a chance to separate our things and although it was awkward at times, we got through it.  Mr. Hyde handed me a few cards, pictures or other mementos from when we were dating and happier times in our marriage.  "Do you want these?  If not, I'm just going to throw them out." 

I went through all the items and flashed back to all we had been through.  We overcame
a huge amount of obstacles to get together.  Living so far from each other had made dating
difficult, but we loved each other so we worked around it.  I started my marriage with the
naive image of the Brady Bunch family.  We would bring two broken families together and
create a strong, happy, loving family unit.  Our kids got along so well and we were in love...
what could go wrong?

The last couple of days were hard. It's easy to justify leaving when Mr. Hyde is around, but
when his thoughtful, caring counterpart Dr. Jekyl is in the house, it's very difficult.  Dr.
Jekyll is the man I fell in love with... the handsome, caring, romantic family man... I saw him again those last couple of days and my heart ached.  If only Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde weren't so intertwined; if I could perform some sort of divorce of the two personalities; or an exorcism.

Mr. Hyde is a selfish, thoughtless, insensitive, inconsiderate and cruel jerk who I won't waste a single second missing; but I'm still in love with Dr. Jekyll. He will always have a place in my heart and will be terribly missed.