The Tongue Strikes Again

Ok, so I'm getting a divorce. I can handle that. My life couldn't get anymore complicated, right? WRONG! The soon to be ex-husband of my soon to be ex-husband's girlfriend and I have gotten to be "close" in the last few months. Yes, we are in a relationship. Quick, call Jerry and book us on his next taping. I know it's weird, but it "just happened".

C and I have a lot in common, more than just our spouses. He is awesome! I love spending time with him, he is great with my daughter, and I love his children. The problem is I have a big mouth and can't seem to stop calling his soon to be ex-wife a "whore". I have never said it in front of the kids, only to my friends and when my ex and I have an arguement. He runs and tells her and she calls C and rips him a new one. So much for if the shoe fits wear it.

Friday was the last time and M called a private meeting with C and told him that if the name calling doesn't stop she won't let him have the kids when I'm around. Now C says he needs time to think. He doesn't want to have to choose between me and his children, which I would never let him do. He told me he loves me and he isn't breaking up with me, he just needs time. So of course I'm dying inside. I drove over an hour to see him last night because I couldn't stand to not talk to him. I needed to look him in the eye and tell him that I was sorry for perpetuating the drama with the two stooges.

I needed him to see what was in my heart. Was I wrong? I wish I knew. C said I need to let the past go and I know he's right, but how can I do that when everytime I have to communicate with my ex I have a slip of the tongue? HELP! Believe it or not I am more upset at the thought of losing C than I was when I found out my husband wanted a divorce. I need to fix this before I lose my mind.